Being sad all the time for no reason is honestly my aesthetic now
i wish i had more friends. my only real friend is my boyfriend and while i do love him, it just gets so lonely sometimes. i just want someone who’ll stay up with me at 3 in the morning and we’ll talk about the universe and our feelings and hold each other when we cry
mostly i want to go out and see the world. i want to experience other towns, other cities, other cultures, other lives. i always say that I don’t want to live anymore, that i want to die. but i don’t think i necessarily want to be dead, i just want to live a life that feels better
i wish i could just fade away and become something beautiful; like a red rose freshly bloomed, the ocean waves so blue, the sunset’s rays kissing your lips goodnight, the constellations dancing with the dark summer sky
i know i need to drown out these feelings, because dreams will never be reality. it’s just another mountain i have to climb. but I’ve become far too familiar with mountains. instead of climbing, i feel like it would be easier to just let go
